Krinda Artist Statement

My sister, Krinda Joy Carlson, is a very high achieving person. She seems to excel at everything she does. She has maintained a perfect 4.0 grade point average throughout her undergraduate years, set school records in track and field, and, as an English major, received numerous awards and recognition for her writing. However, as her sister, I see her struggles as well as her successes, her stress as well as her joy, and her vulnerability as well as her strength.

These images document Krinda’s last month as a student and athlete for Saint Martin’s University. As class valedictorian and captain of the track and field and cross country team, her immediate smile and exuberant personality often convince people she always has everything under control. However, individuals like Krinda, who seem never to fail, are often misunderstood. I want to show the Krinda that I see, the one that is only human…the Krinda that struggles with her own exacting standards for herself, the Krinda who sometimes fears failure and always strives to do the best she can in everything she does. For, I believe it is her genuineness and integrity of character, not just her successes, that earns the respect and affection of those around her.

Graduating Summa Cum Laude, Krinda waits with fellow graduates to enter the auditorium on May 8th, 2010.

Krinda delivers her valedictorian speech to hundreds during Saint Martin's University's Commencement Ceremony on May 8th, 2010.

SMU Invite, May 1st, 2010, Krinda competes in the 1500m Run.

Krinda prepares to go on a cool down run after runnning the 1500m at the SMU Invite on May 1st, 2010.

Krinda prepares to give her senior thesis defense argument on April 30th, 2010.

Krinda works on her senior thesis essay in her room on April 14, 2010.

Krinda reads her Bible the morning before her senior thesis defense on April 30th, 2010.

Krinda worries about her senior thesis essay, April 15, 2010.

Krinda presents her "Letters of Worth" autobiography from her Spiritual Autobiography Class on April 27th, 2010.

Friends gather to play games and celebrate Krinda's graduation on May 8th, 2010.

Krinda plans to move to Hawaii with her brother in the fall, where she will pursue a massage therapy degree and begin expanding "Letters of Worth" into a full book. Thereafter, she plans to receive her Master of Fine Arts in Creative Writing.

At last, I am done with my fairy tale and mythology narrative series project! It has been a fun, challenging, and excellent learning experience. Come view my prints near Photoland and the market area on the first floor of the Library (at the Evergreen State College of course)!

As a recap of my project, I’d like to share my artist statement and my final images:


Artist Statement

I am inspired by the themes and narratives found in fairy tales and mythology. These stories capture my imagination. I am attracted to their fantastical characters and settings. My work involves only female characters, for I believe women have a strong presence in the narratives of fairy tales. Using the medium of photography, I strive to create images that portray the wonderment of the stories yet, because of the camera, still hold a pretense in reality. The photographs were created using either a digital, medium format, or view camera and printed digitally.

I am surprised fairy tales, amidst their beauty and enchantment, contain such macabre elements. These stories, which are often thought to be solely for children’s enjoyment, are filled with murders, witches, spirits, and death. Gretel’s Escape focuses on Gretel’s remorse and horror after circumstances force her to murder the witch by burning her alive. The Little Match Girl sees visions of her grandmother, the only person whom ever loved her, as she lights her matches to stay warm, before eventually freezing to death. Rapunzel is locked away, a victim of an evil witch, yet, in my interpretation, she is not submissive and still retains her dignity. Death’s Messenger is based on Grimm’s fairy tale of the same title. In the story, Death is personified as a person and sends intangible messengers to those he is about to overcome. I find the idea of Death personified to be captivating and a reoccurring theme throughout fairy tales and mythology.

In mythology, I am interested in nymphs and muses, for these female spirits are powerful entities connected to nature, the elements, and artistic creation. In Tree Nymph, The Muse, and Nympha Luminis (Latin, meaning “Nymph of Light”), I wanted to represent these spirits as strong individuals, as both part and separate from that which they are patrons.

Tree Nymph

Gretel's Escape

Death's Messenger

The Little Match Girl

Rapunzel

The Muse

Nympha Luminis

In mythology, nymphs are closely connected to nature and the elements, much like the beings that we call “fairies”.  This is the last installment in my fairy tale and mythology series. There is no particular story connected to the image. The idea has just been in my head for a while…a light nymph or “Nympha Luminis” (Latin, meaning Nymph of Light). It did not turn out the way I envisioned, largely because translating the images in my imagination into reality is really hard. There are so many factors involved in making a photograph like this. I used a 4×5 view camera, at night! So focusing with a flashlight was the only way to go. Secondly it was windy… causing motion blur, and determining that the model stand very still, which was made more difficult by the fact that it was freezing that night.

Overall though, I am happy with the way it turned out. I like the implied motion in the image because of the blur and the placement of the lanterns throughout the tree(s).

This is about half the length and content that will go into the final slideshow which follows my sister’s journey through graduation. The project is for my Documentary Photography class. The full slideshow will come next week!

NOTE: At the end of the slideshow, the pictures move really fast, that is because I am planning to add more audio and more pictures. The final show will be about twice as long as this.

“Early in the morning, Gretel had to go out and hang up the cauldron with the water, and light the fire. “We will bake first,” said the old woman, “I have already heated the oven, and kneaded the dough.” She pushed poor Gretel out to the oven, from which flames of fire were already darting. “Creep in,” said the witch, “and see if it is properly heated, so that we can put the bread in.” And once Gretel was inside, she intended to shut the oven and let her bake in it, and then she would eat her, too. But Gretel saw what she had in mind, and said: “I do not know how I am to do it; how do I get in?” “Silly goose,” said the old woman. “The door is big enough; just look, I can get in myself!” and she crept up and thrust her head into the oven. Then Gretel gave her a push that drove her far into it, and shut the iron door, and fastened the bolt. Oh then she began to howl quite horribly, but Gretel ran away, and the godless witch was miserably burnt to death.”

I am interested in Gretel in the story of Hansel and Gretel. She ultimately ends up taking matters into her own hands, saving herself and her brother, while also “cooking” the witch. I focused on two elements of Gretel’s character, her strength and vindication, and also her remorse. Gretel ran away because she could not stand the witch’s screams. Whether witch or not, “cooking” someone alive is simply macabre. I continually notice these unexpected elements in Grimm’s fairy tales (among others), themes such as innocent children committing horrendous murder, because circumstances force them to, of course. It is the common motif of good versus evil, one that is so blatantly prevalent in Grimm’s fairy tales.

This shoot was rather challenging ( and unpleasant, for both the model and I). The “oven” is a fallen, rotted tree’s roots. Inside, the ground is sinking mud. Not just any mud, but the kind that you can sink into if you stand in one place for too long. In addition, there were hoards of bugs. I still have bug bites to show for it! To achieve the lighting, I had to use three strobes through a satin white umbrella (camera left) in order to bring the tree and the shadowy forest in balance with the ambient light streaming through the trees behind. For the “oven” I rented a fog machine (and a generator to power it). I hid the fog macine in the corner by the model and bounced a red gelled strobe off white garbage bags. I had to thread the cord of the fog machine through the side of the tree because the generator was too big to fit in that corner!

Below are a few of the outtakes, it was difficult to get the smoke and the models pose to come all together in one shot.

On May 8th, Saint Martin’s University held their Commencement ceremony. The day marked the official end of Krinda’s undergraduate journey.

It was exciting, stressful, and surreal all at the same time for Krinda. Grandparents, friends, and my family came from all over the state  to support her.

Krinda reviews her speech on May 8th, 2010.

I remember Krinda telling me a few weeks ago that she cried on the last day of one of her classes. She says she will actually miss school. When graduation day finally came,  I could tell she had mixed emotions about leaving Saint Martin’s.

Krinda delivers her valedictorian speech to hundreds during Saint Martin’s University’s Commencement Ceremony.

As Krinda began her valedictorian speech,  she shouted out with confidence, “Just checkin’ to see if everyones awake…everybody awake out there?” The crowd roared with applause and laughter (I personally think it was  because the previous speaker was quite boring and long winded).

Krinda visits the hotel room of her family before going out to celebrate with friends and family on May 8th, 2010.

“Catch Phrase” is the popular game at Krinda’s graduation party.

Later that night, friends gathered to celebrate with Krinda and two of her graduating friends.

Krinda and her brother, Capt. Nathan Carlson, contemplate a question raised in a game at her graduation party.

Friends watch a video of Krinda’s graduation speech later that night.

“Over in a corner between two houses…she sat down  and huddled. She tucked her tiny legs under her, but she froze even more..Alas! One little match would do so much good!…It was a warm clear flame…the matches shone with such a radiance it was brighter than the light of day…The morning of the New Year dawned over the little body sitting with the matches, of which a bunch was almost burnt up. She had wanted to warm herself, it was said…”

The Little Match Girl is a tragic story, yet it is beautiful in a way. The little peasant girl sold no matches on New Year’s Eve, so she lights them for warmth. Each time she lights one, she sees something wonderful. The first time it’s a warm fire, the second a table with a feast on it, the third a beautiful Christmas tree, and finally she sees her Grandmother as she is lighting her last matches. Her grandmother is the one who takes her to heaven. “She [Grandmother] lifted up the little girl in her arms, and in radiance and rejoicing they flew so high, so high. And there was no cold, no hunger, no fear-they were with God”.

I wanted to focus on the mixed beauty and tragedy of this story. We connect fairy tales with “happily ever afters” and dreams coming true, but that is not how Andersen writes. Many of his stories are sad, strange, and downright weird. I’m drawn to The Little Match Girl because of the character’s vulnerability. She is so fragile and her death so tragic, but the sweet note of the story is the way it ends. In a way, she does have a “happily ever after”, just not in the way one would expect.

It probably is evident to the observant eye that I “faked” the match light (no match would ever throw that much light, and in order to burn it in, the shutter would have to be dragged way to long to get a sharp picture). I had a snoot with 2 full CTO gels on it aimed at Marlee’s (my great little model) face. It was really difficult to get the snoot placed just right since it was such a narrow beam of light, and it was also challenging to make sure that the match didn’t cast a shadow on her face from the strobe, which would have given away my “fake”. Also, even the slightest amount of wind blew out the match, so I had to work very quickly. The other light is one strobe zoomed to 70mm with a 1/2 CTB gel aimed at the wall for added depth and a “cold” feeling.

Many thanks to Marlee, Rhonda, and Cortney for helping out on this one!

Source: Andersen’s Fairy Tales, Hans Christian Andersen

In a previous post, I explained how I wanted to redo the “Death’s Messenger” shot by the cemetery gates. I reshot it last Friday, here are the results:

Here is the original photo with a diagram of how I wanted to change it:

I did not add water to the path, nor did I use a back light (the sun did that job). I did balance my camera to tungsten in order to “cool” down the warm sunset, then I warmed up my strobes with full CTO gels in order to bring them back to white. In Photoshop, I removed a lot of that awful cyan color (awful in my opinion) that is so prevalent whenever you use the tungsten white balance in daylight. I’m still not sure if I’m happy with the color, but I know that I want the image to feel cool in tone and creepy in mood. So you can see the effect of color balancing strobes and using tungsten white balance, here is what the image would have looked like had I used auto white balance in camera. Note the orange color of the strobes because of the CTO gels and the yellowness of the sun:

On a side note, I actually had a run in with the campus security at SMU during this shoot! The security guard inquired about what I was doing, and I calmly explained. He was kind enough to let me finish the shoot.

Outside the market area on the first floor of the Library Building at the Evergreen State College, a few of my prints are on display! Just four from my fairy tale/mythology series are up…more to come during Week 10 of this quarter. If you get a chance, go have a look!

Tom Chambers’ photomontages are both surreal and magical. He combines an element of whimsy to even his most compelling and somewhat macabre images (like the photo below).

Chambers has a background in graphic design, but he has been working in photomontage since 1998. His process and work flow are interesting. In an interview with Shots magazine, Chambers reveals that a montage can sometimes take up to a month to put together, depending upon how long it takes him to get all the individual shots. He shoots digitally with a Nikon as well as with medium format film, scanning his negatives and editing in Photoshop. When asked how he knows if a particular montage is “working”, Chambers replied, “My rule of thumb is to create an image that is possible in reality, but not probable.”

I too am interested in constructing “improbable” realities. That is why I use photography as a means of expressing the fantastical scenes and motifs in fairy tales. I feel people believe a photo more readily than a painting or drawing; it has an aura of truth around it. This aura is produced by the “myth of photographic truth”,  as it has been called; however, with the advent and prolific use of digital manipulation, I believe it has become more and more of an oxymoron.

Chambers Rite of Passage series is really powerful. He combines imagery of young women in fancy, vintage costume with stark images of nature. He poses his the models and has them interact with their environments in such a way that they seem oblivious, or at least unaware, of all that is around them. Chambers describes the series on his website:

“In composing a variety of stark, woodland settings in contrast with a billowy dress or other man-made articles, I explore the dichotomy between what is natural and what is fabricated. Why do people costumed in formal dress seem so omnipotent on the street, yet so vulnerable in the wild? Each of these photomontages explores a place where unexpected circumstances collide.”

As I am struggling to define what makes a successful fantasy image (while still holding a pretense in reality), I find Chambers’ words encouraging.  It is not how fantastical or elaborate I make a photograph that is important. Rather the fantasy is found in instances where “unexpected circumstances collide”…where the improbable meets reality.

Sources:

http://www.photoeye.com/Gallery (for images)

http://www.tomchambersphoto.com

Shots Magazine, Porfolio Issue: Winter 2008