I’ve been going through some personal turmoil lately… I’m reminded of the verse in the Bible that says: “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.” (Isaiah 1:18). I wanted to use color symbolically…red and white as purity and sin. If you look closely at the images, you will notice a hand in the window, reaching toward the figure inside. There were times in my life in which I felt I was being pulled, trapped by a behavior that I knew was wrong, but I didn’t know how to stop. That is like sin; it offers a counterfeit, a false beauty that is appealing but stains the purity of God’s grace and separates us from what we long for most.
On a technical note, most of these images are a combination of three to four different exposures (one for the hand through the window, one for the “mist” which is actually baking flour, and one for the pose, and then in the above photo, one for the rose petals). Below are some images that I didn’t spend as much time on editing…and a video tour of the creepy abandoned house a friend of mine and fellow artist was kind enough to direct me to so I could do this shoot.
In my last post, I spoke of letting go…letting go of memories and the physical objects that remind us of them. This week I wanted to explore that idea more… I had a recent experience in which it was extremely hard for me to let go of a box of “memory objects”. I felt paralyzed as I held the box over the trash can, knowing I needed to let go of the objects and the memories they represented but wanting desperately to hang on. This series of images is an exploration of the idea that even something as mundane as a cardboard box filled with what would seem like trash to one person, can hold significant and paralyzing power over another. I am happy to say that I finally trashed the box after a few agonizing minutes, but it was those frozen minutes of desperately clutching to the “memory” box and wanting to hang on that inspired this series. More photos, a video, and some outtakes below.