Krinda Artist Statement

My sister, Krinda Joy Carlson, is a very high achieving person. She seems to excel at everything she does. She has maintained a perfect 4.0 grade point average throughout her undergraduate years, set school records in track and field, and, as an English major, received numerous awards and recognition for her writing. However, as her sister, I see her struggles as well as her successes, her stress as well as her joy, and her vulnerability as well as her strength.

These images document Krinda’s last month as a student and athlete for Saint Martin’s University. As class valedictorian and captain of the track and field and cross country team, her immediate smile and exuberant personality often convince people she always has everything under control. However, individuals like Krinda, who seem never to fail, are often misunderstood. I want to show the Krinda that I see, the one that is only human…the Krinda that struggles with her own exacting standards for herself, the Krinda who sometimes fears failure and always strives to do the best she can in everything she does. For, I believe it is her genuineness and integrity of character, not just her successes, that earns the respect and affection of those around her.

Graduating Summa Cum Laude, Krinda waits with fellow graduates to enter the auditorium on May 8th, 2010.

Krinda delivers her valedictorian speech to hundreds during Saint Martin's University's Commencement Ceremony on May 8th, 2010.

SMU Invite, May 1st, 2010, Krinda competes in the 1500m Run.

Krinda prepares to go on a cool down run after runnning the 1500m at the SMU Invite on May 1st, 2010.

Krinda prepares to give her senior thesis defense argument on April 30th, 2010.

Krinda works on her senior thesis essay in her room on April 14, 2010.

Krinda reads her Bible the morning before her senior thesis defense on April 30th, 2010.

Krinda worries about her senior thesis essay, April 15, 2010.

Krinda presents her "Letters of Worth" autobiography from her Spiritual Autobiography Class on April 27th, 2010.

Friends gather to play games and celebrate Krinda's graduation on May 8th, 2010.

Krinda plans to move to Hawaii with her brother in the fall, where she will pursue a massage therapy degree and begin expanding "Letters of Worth" into a full book. Thereafter, she plans to receive her Master of Fine Arts in Creative Writing.

This is about half the length and content that will go into the final slideshow which follows my sister’s journey through graduation. The project is for my Documentary Photography class. The full slideshow will come next week!

NOTE: At the end of the slideshow, the pictures move really fast, that is because I am planning to add more audio and more pictures. The final show will be about twice as long as this.

On May 8th, Saint Martin’s University held their Commencement ceremony. The day marked the official end of Krinda’s undergraduate journey.

It was exciting, stressful, and surreal all at the same time for Krinda. Grandparents, friends, and my family came from all over the state  to support her.

Krinda reviews her speech on May 8th, 2010.

I remember Krinda telling me a few weeks ago that she cried on the last day of one of her classes. She says she will actually miss school. When graduation day finally came,  I could tell she had mixed emotions about leaving Saint Martin’s.

Krinda delivers her valedictorian speech to hundreds during Saint Martin’s University’s Commencement Ceremony.

As Krinda began her valedictorian speech,  she shouted out with confidence, “Just checkin’ to see if everyones awake…everybody awake out there?” The crowd roared with applause and laughter (I personally think it was  because the previous speaker was quite boring and long winded).

Krinda visits the hotel room of her family before going out to celebrate with friends and family on May 8th, 2010.

“Catch Phrase” is the popular game at Krinda’s graduation party.

Later that night, friends gathered to celebrate with Krinda and two of her graduating friends.

Krinda and her brother, Capt. Nathan Carlson, contemplate a question raised in a game at her graduation party.

Friends watch a video of Krinda’s graduation speech later that night.

This past week has been really busy for Krinda. She had Scholar’s Day and a presentation on Tuesday, Senior Thesis Defense on Friday, and her last season track meet on Saturday.

Krinda is awarded to the All Conference Academic Team in Track and Cross Country

Krinda presents her "Letters of Worth" autobiography from her Spiritual Autobiography Class.

While I was super proud of her, I definitely did not envy her, having to speak in front of all those people! And her senior thesis defense was pretty nerve racking, but she pulled through excellently (of course)!

Krinda waits to give her senior thesis presentaion.

Saturday was a pretty emotional day not only for Krinda, but for me as well. I have a lot more photos but I’ll only post a few for now.

SMU teammates pray before the 800m Run.

As a class assignment in Documentary Photography, we had an option of participating in the Photo Center Northwest Long Shot Photo-thon. The event is open to anyone and everyone. The idea is to photograph for a full twenty-four hour period, asking people to pledge money for every hour you shoot. It is designed to raise funds for the Photo Center NW and to support local photographers and artists. Shooting for a day straight? And for a good cause? What fun!

So, the Photo-thon kicked off Friday night at 6 PM and ended at 6 PM on Saturday. My classmate Miranda and I wanted to choose a theme so we wouldn’t be wandering around aimlessly with our cameras. I remembered London based “street” photographer Nick Turpin whose street portraits are really dramatic and interesting. He uses snooted strobes balanced with ambient light to create mini studios on the street and to add drama to everyday scenes. I particularly liked his Bridge series. So, Miranda and I decided to do street portraits Friday night, a la “Strobist” style.

Our first set-up was on the path near Capital Lake. Since it was cold and gloomy, there were not very many people out and about. Plus, because this was the first time I’ve ever asked strangers to take their portraits (I’m naturally shy), I think I overcompensated and got a little too enthusiastic. I practically ran at the first person I asked, explaining I was doing a project and if I could take her picture. She just stared at me and shook her head. After that, I learned to be a little more subtle.

Since the walkers and joggers around Capital Lake were getting very few and far in between, we decided to pack up and move to a more central location downtown.

We decided on this orange wall near 4th Street. As it got darker, the street lamps shining through the trees created some pretty crazy shadows. I was amazed at how many people consented to having their photo taken. Some kid even asked me if it cost money! “No, not at all!” I replied.

I was also intrigued by all the different characters we met. There are definitely some crazies out there. We couldn’t get this one guy to leave us alone; he must have talked to us about nonsense for fifteen minutes straight. I just looked at Miranda, pretending to listen but really trying not to laugh. A few people were really interested in what we were doing; a lot of people asked me what kind of camera I was using. Some people even thought our snooted flash was some sort of “gun”…uh it is “flash gun”, I guess!

The photo above is by far my favorite from the evening. This man consented to having his photo taken so graciously. I titled it “Memories” because he looks like he is really contemplating something.

These two were an interesting pair. They really got into posing and talked with us for a while afterward. It is interesting how taking someone’s portrait can establish a form of connection; I found that sometimes the person you are photographing will open up to you and tell you things about their lives that you would have never even asked about!

This was a fun couple. Before the photo the girl asked me if she needed to get rid of her cigarette. I said, “No!” I like how it adds a little red glow to her hand.

I found another photographer participating in the Long Shot Photo-thon!

For our last set-up, we moved around the corner and bounced the light off a shop window (there is also a snooted strobe below the person for a highlight).

I love this photo. He was distracted by some loud street noises and gave me this adorable, timid look! However , by this time it was almost ten o’clock. Miranda and I were both tired and a little wary because of the arrival of more and more shady characters. We decided to call it a night… we were both too tired to try and shoot through the night. So we decided to resume the Photo-thon the next day.

Saturday morning I had a track meet to go to…along came camera. I was not only photographing for the Long Shot project, but also for my final project in Documentary Photography (a story on my sister’s last few weeks at college).

I mostly focused on photographing my sister, but I got a few other interesting shots like the one above.

Participating in the Long Shot Photo-thon was really fun and really exhausting… and I didn’t even make it the full twenty-four hours! Now I just need to decide which ten images to submit. Out of the ten that a participant sends, at least one if chosen for inclusion in the Long Shot Exhibition on June 4th!

“Rapunzel had beautiful long hair that shone like gold. When she heard the voice of the witch [crying, "Rapunzel, Rapunzel! Let down your hair!"] she would… unbind the plaits of her hair, and let it down…” – “Rapunzel”, Grimm’s Complete Fairy Tales

What is striking about the Grimm’s version of Rapunzel is how macabre it is. Rapunzel is locked in a tower, forced to cater to an ugly witch’s needs. Her prince’s eyes are gouged out. And yet, somehow, the story ends happily ever after. Rapunzel is a victim in the story, vindicated by a prince. My twist on the story is putting the power in Rapunzel’s hands, she chooses whom she “lets her hair down” for. She takes command, not needing a prince to save her from utter despair.

In my version, Rapunzel is locked in a dilapidated room in an old, abandoned warehouse. She is plotting her escape and her revenge. Her hair is a symbol of her independence, since in the original story her hair is the means by which she was oppressed.

Below are some outtakes from the shoot. I loved the close ups with Rapunzel and her braid, but I felt they looked a little too studio like for my narrative series. It was really difficult for me to choose the right warehouse room shot; I liked so many of them! But I felt the one I chose was the most dynamic and fit my theme of “defiance” the best.

Image by Lauren Greenfield from THIN

Documentary photographer Lauren Greenfield’s work has largely focused on cultural issues, specifically those social and cultural issues which pertain to youth, woman and girls. Her first large project after graduating from Harvard in 1987 was entitled Fast Forward, a documentary of how growing up in the “shadow of Hollywood” affects children’s and teen’s maturity rate and behavior. Greenfield has done countless photo essays following Fast Forward, but Girl Culture from 1998 and THIN from 2006 are two of her larger pieces. Both were released as books. Girl Culture portrays woman and girls in the role they assume in American culture and how the media and consumerism has influenced their own perceptions of their identities. Greenfield has referred to the project as the “body project.”  In her artist statement, she says “the body has become the primary canvas on which girls express their identities, insecurities, ambitions, and struggles.” A common theme throughout the series is the influence of media culture on woman and girl’s relationships with their own bodies and the image they project outward.

Images from Girl Culture

THIN focuses on “body” issues even more closely. The project documents the lives of those recovering from eating disorders such as anorexia nervosa and bulimia at Renfrew treatment center in Coconut Creek, Florida. She began taking photos of the patients at the treatment center in 1997, and in the subsequent years received full access to document the lives of the patients. Receiving commission from HBO, Greenfield directed the documentary film THIN, accompanying it with a photographic book of the same title. The film was screened at the Sundance Film Festival in 2006 , nominated for an Emmy for Outstanding Direction in 2007, and since has won many awards.

Images from Thin

The film is very impacting, emotionally. It had me in tears; I really felt like I had shared a part of the patient’s lives by the end of the film. Viewing the photographs after the film, they seem even more intimate and jarring. Greenfield states,

“While the Girl Culture journey was very personal for me, inspired by my own body-image issues and memories from childhood, Thin was a crossing into the unknown. Though it began with a familiar departure point of the body project, it descended quickly into the heart of darkness of mental illness. The women in the film and book helped me navigate the deep, difficult places that I have never known firsthand.”

The teaser for the film and slideshows from Fast Forward, Girl Culture, and Thin came be viewed at laurengreenfield.com; the documentary film Thin came be seen on YouTube in eleven parts.

Sources: laurengreenfield.com